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The Celle Seminars – Page 53

She is still very frightened of him and does not really like to be alone with him. He has always been the boss. She’s also afraid of bugs – microphones – in the wall, things like that. This may seem unrealistic, but there is a realistic background to it.
(F.P.): I’m being realistic because the fact is, my husband is constantly checking up on me.
(G.V.): Do you feel that your husband is jealous of you?
(F.P.): Yes, of course.
(G.V.): How much violence are you capable of? To what extent does your anger carry you? Do you break things, a lot of things? (F.P.): I’d have to say that during a crisis I don’t know what I do or how violent I become. You’ll have to ask my daughter what I do.(G.V.): Please tell me about your mother’s violent outbursts.
(D.): Last time we wanted to go to the doctor, I tried to dress my mother and she slapped my face. This is quite unusual in our family. Afterwards she was sorry. Another example of violence: sometimes she beats on the table with her fists, or she lies down and beats on the floor with her hands and fists and generally injures herself.(G.V.): Does she tear her clothes?
(D.): Yes, one night she was wearing a nightgown and she tried to strangle herself with it thinking that the demons would then come out. I can tell you of other destructive incidences. For example, she clears out some of the cupboards and puts all the things outside, and in the process, flower vases and other bric-a-brac are damaged. Having her in the kitchen can be dangerous because she might use the bread slicer, or some other appliance. (H.): Perhaps I ought to mention that one day my wife went into the kitchen and switched on all the kitchen appliances, including the bread-slicing machine. This could have been rather dangerous.(D.): Or sometimes she’d open all the taps on the kitchen faucets.(H.): Or constantly switch the lights on and off at a high speed.(F.P.): To me this was always a call for help, raising the alarm, switching the light on and off
(G.V.): Hmm. You see this as a call for help?
(F.P.): An S.O.S.