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The Celle Seminars – Page 309

(F.P.): He meant that I couldn’t in any way be classified as an average person.
(G.V.): Yes, but why? Were you, for instance, very happy, or very unhappy; or very calm and then very irritable? What was it? (F.P.): Yes, it is true that I often move between extremes.
(G.V.): You can be very happy and then very unhappy, changing moods, like Pulsatilla?
(F.P.): Yes, I’ve always been like that. I’m either bursting with energy or I’ve no energy at all. I keep my distance from people, or I’m very close to them. And if I want to be on my own, then I want to be completely alone. That’s a problem. For example, I don’t like going to a public place and having a meal at those times; I totally close myself off. And the opposite is the case as well.(G.V.): Do you mean that sometimes you can appear in public and sometimes you can’t?
(F.P.): Sometimes, when I have a lot of people around me, I find it very difficult to break the contact; and then at other times I just don’t want to see anybody at all, I don’t even want to see members of my family. But when I’m at home, I never have occa-sion to be alone. When I get the opportunity to be alone I enjoy it very much, (laughs)
(G.V.): If you are alone too long, do you seek company?
(F.P.): Yes, but I can be alone for a week with no problem. Another extreme point is my sleep: either I don’t sleep at all or only very shortly. I wake up at 4:00 a.m. full of energy and the desire to do something for myself alone. But then sometimes I don’t go to bed in the evening at all. It was even like that during my school days. I would start to do my homework at midnight and then at 3:00 a.m., I would wonder what I would do next. This would go on for a few weeks, and then it would be followed by a phase in which I would feel tired and I would sleep like a normal person, say 10:00 p.m. to 6:30 a.m. But I have phases when I lie down on the sofa in the living room at 8:30 p.m. only to find myself being woken up by my husband at 10:00 p.m. saying that it’s is time to go to bed.