(F.P.): Yes. Those relationships didn’t touch me. In fact I could distance myself more then, be more aggressive.
(G.V.): In what way aggressive?
(F.P.): I was able to express more clearly my nonacceptance of something.
(G.V.): Were you ever very angry in your life?
(F.P.): Rarely. I can remember the circumstances in each case.(G.V.): Why were you angry?
(F.P.): The first incident was when I was a little girl of four. I remember quite vividly that my parents did not want to do some-thing for me or did not want to give me something. In any case, I laid down in the middle of the street and I screamed and shouted. There wasn’t a lot of traffic on the street, so it was probably reasonably safe. The second time was when my sister had been annoying my mother. I slapped her face and told her to shut up and stop annoying my mother. Another occasion was when I had assigned a colleague some work and she didn’t do it well at all; in fact, it was done so poorly that I had to give it back. Not only did she turn it in poorly done, she gave me the impression that I ought to be very grateful that she did it in the first place and that she’d done it so well. I got very angry about that
(G.V.): And what did you do?
(F.P.): I was very angry with her, all tied up, but I showed it in such a way that only she knew that I was mad. I wanted her to know perfectly well what I thought of her work, and that I did not think a lot of her as a person. Still, no one else would have been able to pick up on what was going on.
(G.V.): Do you mean that inside you got very angry and didn’t say anything, but that your colleague could feel it radiating off you?(F.P.): Yes, the other person must have clearly perceived it. (G.V.): But did you say anything directly about the quality of her work?
(F.P.): I specifically drew attention to all her mistakes, almost in a mean, cynical way, but only so she noticed. The nurse present at the time didn’t know what was going on. Afterwards I never