to eat something, but I just can’t swallow.
(G.V.): If you try and swallow, what happens?
(F.P.): I start gagging. I threw up on Tuesday night, I had some tomato soup and I threw that up. I can’t brush my teeth because I gag. Since I don’t have anything in my stomach, I would have dry-heaves(retching); nothing would come up since there is nothing in my stomach.
(G.V.): Do you feel exhausted?
(F.P.): Yeah.
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(G.V.): You see, what I perceive is that she is in a terrible state. She is ready to cry, she could break into tears anytime. This is the crescendo, this is what is going to happen, she tries to control it, but in spite of the situation she’s in, she understands that everybody is looking at her. She is ready to break down in a helpless plea: “Please help me, I’m dying.” She does not actually say, “I’m dying,” or “I am not able to eat, I am so upset inside.” Why is she upset? “Because of life, of the responsibilities of life, I don’t want to grow up, I want protection, I am helpless, I am too weak.” All these things have been said already, but not always directly. Let’s see:
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(G.V.): Are you thirsty?
(F.P.):Yes, I am.
(G.V.): You are ready to cry…
(F.P.): Yes, I just want to get better. I feel like I’ m regressing back to the hell I felt as a child, just really frightened and scared.
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(G.V.): “I feel that I’m regressing back to the way I felt as a child- scared,”- This is going to synthesize the picture of the remedy. What we hear are not just words, but a manifestation of a disorder. What sort of disorder, of what type? This is what