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Materia Medica Viva – Volume 2 page 511

tries to redirect his mind back to his work, but these thoughts just will not leave him. Finally he picks up the screwdriver and walks over to the outlet, catching himself just as he is about to insert the screwdriver in the outlet. If someone should walk in just at this moment and surprise the patient, he would be quite embarrassed. He understands that he was acting on an irrational impulse, out of foolishness, and that his behavior was not normal. He feels that he has to try to explain what he was doing, so he fishes around in his mind for some justification, typically coming up with some lame excuse, a foolish, illogical rationale: "I was just checking the size of the wire in this outlet." It says in the text: "He gave all sorts of queer reasons for his strange conduct, endeavoring to cover up his foolishness that he himself realizes."
Another patient imagines that he must not turn at a particular corner because some tragedy will befall him if he turns onto that street. He carefully avoids or becomes incapable of entering that block. He realizes the stupidity of it all but cannot avoid it. Here again one sees the superstitious element.
Sometimes the brain fag is so powerful that he feels that he is not in touch with reality; in such cases the patient becomes so irrational and obstinate that he may object to something for no reason at all, just for the sake of objecting.
All of the above are some examples of the impulsiveness and irrational thinking portrayed in Argentum nitricum. The practitioner does not have to take these examples word for word but must understand the gist or spirit behind them which can be applied in appropriate cases. It is a certainty that different cultures may present the same symptomatology in a modified manner.
As the impulses become more deeply entrenched, the patient can reach a stage of compulsive neurosis or fixed ideation. He may be alarmed by an impulse to kill someone, perhaps even his own child. Having reached this stage, when he comes to the interview, he will quickly confess all of his compulsions and will be eager to receive help. At other times, especially during acute illnesses, the patient may develop an irrational idea that he will die at some particular hour of the day (Aeon., Agn. c. ). He becomes certain that he will die at three o’clock, for instance, and he watches the clock with agony.