(F.P.): Yes, that may be so.
(G.V.): But you cannot do otherwise?
(F.P.): I’d like to be more open, free, but I cannot. I think I have had to use my mind constantly to be able to cope with everything.(G.V.): Have you had any traumatic experiences in your past, in your childhood? Did you perhaps take a fall while riding a horse?
(F.P.): There were no real traumatic experiences that I can recall. Once, when I was three years old, I was left by my parents. I was brought to some relatives, and my parents hadn’t let me know beforehand what was going to happen to me. I was just taken to my relatives and left there, dumped there. I had a terrible attack of homesickness. In fact, it got so bad that they had to phone my parents right away to come take me back home.
(G.V.): What were the signs? Did you say, “I am homesick?” How did they know?
(F.P.): No, it wasn’t that. I just became ill, so ill that my relatives had to get a doctor. The doctor said that I would have to go back to my mother straight away.
(G.V.): And you remember this?
(F.P.): Yes.
(G.V.): Do you remember this well?
(F.P.): Yes.
(G.V.): But you do not remember any other traumatic experi-ences?
(F.P.): No, I wouldn’t say there were any others.
(G.V.): Have you ever felt homesick again in your life? Homesick for your childhood or a place?
(F.P.): No, I had a very harmonious childhood. I have recol-lections and mental images of my childhood, but this is not nostalgia in that sense.
(G.V.): Did you experience a fall?
(F.P.): You mean in my childhood?
(G.V.): Yes.
(F.P.): I think I fell down the stairs once, on my back and my coccyx.