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The Celle Seminars – Page 123

(G.V.): At what age? When he was small?
(Therapist): Yes, in primary school.
(G.V.): At what age would you say your problem really started? (M.P.): I think that it must have started a long time ago, when I was very, very little, because when I was undergoing hypnosis. (G.V.): You underwent hypnosis? At what age?
(Therapist): A year ago.
(M.P.): I recalled a specific incident under hypnosis that hap-pened when I was two-and-a-half years old: some other little boys threw sand at me, and I remember that I didn’t retaliate by throwing sand back. I suspect that’s due to the fact that I retreat into myself every time something like that happens. I’m not someone who takes the defensive. I attribute this to my mother; she should have helped me learn to defend myself instead of always giving me instructions and telling me what to do.
(G.V.): You said that although you contradicted your mother, she’d always say that she was right and you were wrong. Was that the situation?
(M.P.): I didn’t contradict my mother very often because I knew what would happen when I did: she would withhold her love from me.
(G.V.): Do you feel that you have not received enough love from your parents?
(M.P.): My parents did everything for me, but they couldn’t give me what I needed. They thought that what they did was right. (G.V.): Didn’t you receive any affection?
(M.P.): Somehow they went through the motions of loving me, but I don’t feel that they were really capable of being genuinely loving.(G.V.): If you’re participating in a discussion and somebody contradicts you, how do you feel?
(M.P.): I feel slightly attacked.
(G.V.): And then what do you do?
(M.P.):. If people are trying to get at me to put something on me, or if they try to make a big deal about something, or if they’re baiting me, then I get annoyed.