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The Celle Seminars – Page 120

(G.V.): And after you’ve had an orgasm, do you feel very exhausted or terrible or better?
(M.P.): Exhausted and a little bit calmer. Until about a year ago this sort of helped me work out my troubles, as a sort of valve. It’s really the same but I have less energy now. Naturally I miss tenderness. I realize that this can’t actually be the real thing, what I really want.
(G.V.): Do you feel better or worse at night, after sunset?
(M.P.): In some way I do look forward to night, but I wouldn’t say that I really feel any better then. I find the lighting at night is more pleasant because it’s darker. I’m more comfortable driving a car at night, although I find that the light from on coming cars dazzles me. The same applies when I take a walk at night; I find the night is more pleasant for me.
(G.V.): How long have you been losing hair, since you were how old?
(M.P.): It started a few weeks after the first treatment with Sulphur.(G.V.): Is there any season when you feel better – winter, summer, spring?
(M.P.): Well, in the summer I’ve a real horror of the heat. In the winter I just know that it is going to be colder and that the heat won’t be as strong. I can’t honestly say that I feel better in winter, I just don’t have the horror of heat then, that I have in the summer.(G.V.): Do you have any other fears, of animals, darkness, thun-derstorms, etc.?
(M.P.): No, I really haven’t any other fears. You asked me about animals. Well, when I was two-and-a-half years old and then again when I was six years old, a dog snapped at me badly. But that was a long time ago. Today I’m not afraid of dogs unless one physically attacks me.
(Therapist): He’s said that sometimes he’s anxious about the future and anxious that others are laughing at him. And as a child he was anxious about not growing up big enough, tall enough.
(G.V.): Do you have any recurring dreams?