way I did some self-teaching. I followed up all those things that I knew or thought would be useful, and they turned out to be useful. But I know that I cannot cope with my studies further, and that what I’ve learned myself is not sufficient for me to be able to pass my upcoming exams.
(G.V.): What things did you do that were useful?
(M.P.): For example, I dealt with the subject of computer linguis-tics. I understood the advantages and the tremendous potential of the principles; I also understand their potential applications, but I would not have been able to put a coherent case forward in an examination for those applications.
(Therapist): He also developed computers programs. He told me that he has a special stereo system that enables him to listen to his favorite music in the best possible quality.
(G.V.): Do you like music very much?
(M.P.): I love music, but now my headaches are so bad that I simply can’t stand listening to music.
(G. V.): Are you musically inclined? Do you play an instrument? (M.P.): I think I’m a little bit musically inclined. I studied music for a few years, but maybe I didn’t start with the right instrument. For me, music is something emotional, it flows. I know that with music one can feel better over a period of time.
(G.V.): How do you know this? Has music helped you personally to feel better?
(M.P.): It doesn’t necessarily make me better or more capable of accomplishing things. Music just gives me a feeling ofhappiness. (G.V.): But you feel better with music, happier?
(M.P.): Yes.
(G.V.): What do you think about life?
(M.P.): The way I think of life is that I haven’t got the tools today to tackle my life head-on, to take action. For example, with com-puter linguistics: it was a subject that interested me, but I might have become too interested in it and regarded it as a symbol of a higher truth.