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The Bern Seminars – Page 93

(G.V.): Do you like consolation?
(F.P.): Oh sure.
(G.V.): Do you feel weepy?
(F.P.): During the daytime, no, I feel quite cheerful. What the pattern has been is before I get a new remedy – because we’ve tried a couple of different things – I’ll feel quite cheerful. I take one remedy, one dose, or maybe another dose, but when I start to have what I describe as my reaction, then it does make me irritable and slightly weepy. But I’m not the kind of person to feel sorry for myself too much. The presence is there.
(G.V.): Now during your illness?
(F.P.): A little bit, a little bit more yesterday.
(G.V.): Do you become more vulnerable, a little more tender? (F.P.): Uh huh, yeah; ’cause I tend to be sort of a strong person. Yeah, a little like “Oh No!” But it’s only been during that strange cough at night that’s been making me feel that way.
(G.V.): Why do you say, “Oh no!”?
(F.P.): Well, that strange cough at night that comes from nowhere, where I’m not able to get anything out, that goes on nonstop from 7:30 at night to 9:30 in the morning, with the longest break between coughs fifteen minutes, and it makes me weaker and weaker, and achier and achier; then I’ll start to say, “Oh noooo!” (Chuckles) A little bit feeling sorry for myself.
(G.V.): But you never cry really?
(F.P.): No, no.
(G.V.): Do you consider yourself a strong person?
(F.P.): (Laughs) Well, I’m not so sure right now, but I think that basically I am.
(G.V.): How do you feel right now? Vulnerable?
(F.P.): Yes, although for me I guess it feels like it’s a very strange experience being…I feel like I’m in an altered state of conscious-ness. I feel like my body is very sick but…
(G.V.): Your mind is clear?
(F.P.): Right. The insides of me are just the same as always. (G.V.): You teach yoga?