Continuing with our description of the younger constitutional Antimonium crudum patient, we note the following picture: when a young boy, the Antimonium crudum child’s romantic feelings come alive in his imagination. He falls in love much like the Natrum muriaticum boy; he experiences strong emotions, imagining many romantic scenes, making up stories, and living these fantasies intensely. He does not dare tell his sweetheart about his love for her, but at night in bed he melts away from love and romantic emotions. Natrum muriaticum, Staphxjsagria, and Antimonium crudum are somewhat similar in this respect.
Our understanding of this emotional state is further expanded and qualified by additional information provided in our texts: "goes into ecstasy while walking in the moonlight," "weeps when he hears the sound of bells," "is affected by the stained windows of the church." Though you will very seldom hear your patients say that they "go into ecstasy in the moonlight," you will, if you ask, definitely hear that such circumstances affect them. It is a fact that most Antimonium crudum cases will confess that they are especially influenced by the moonlight, especially that of the full moon. It evokes certain strong emotions of which the patient is aware.
As our young boy grows up, he eventually experiences his first love encounter, and, as reality usually differs from the imagination, he is very vulnerable to being deeply hurt. Antimonium crudum is one of our main remedies for love disappointment. He is almost certain to be disappointed and hurt in love; furthermore, he is equally certain to come down with stomach cramps or headaches as a result.
In my experience, Antimonium crudum suffers from the consequences of grief far more often than is indicated in the Repertory. It should be upgraded in the rubric, "ailments from disappointed love." In Antimonium crudum, the consequences of grief usually occur in the stomach, as in Natrum carbonicum.
After experiencing such a grief, our young man goes to the opposite extreme – he becomes closed and sulky; he refuses to communicate, to talk with others. His emotions remain however, not deadened but strong. The difference now is that his emotions are of a negative quality.
Ultimately his emotional balance becomes unstable: he swings from the one extreme of sentimentality, expressed in somewhat of an artistic or