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Materia Medica Viva Volume 12 – page 2686

inconsiderate and is not emotionally investing in the relationship. In reality, there may be no cause for such an assumption but she be- lieves it anyway. Her boyfriend may arrive for an eagerly anticipated date, but when she sees him she is disappointed because he didn’t bring her flowers. At first she does not dare to show her disappointment to him; she suppresses it until she can no longer stand it, and then she breaks down, becoming irrational. Her emotions take over and she cannot control herself. She may irrationally accuse him of all manner of things. She may even rashly break off the relationship. Later though, after she has experienced the grief of being alone for a while, she very quickly agrees to a reconciliation. In the long run, however, her unreasonably high expectations and her pride lead to more outbursts of unpredictable behaviour, and she is liable to drive her lover away for good by such displays.
If the Ignatia pathology fails to affect the physical level, or does so only slightly, then the disturbance gradually progresses deeper into the mental plane. The first sign of this progression is the unpre- dictability described above. Later, during an acute crisis, her mind struggles even more dramatically to resolve the conflict between her ideals and the real world. She says illogical, seemingly unconnected things. She may speak only in fragmented sentences which only hint at what is on her mind. It is difficult to know what a patient in such a state is really thinking, but one can catch a glimpse. Her mind seems scattered when, actually, it is racing madly to resolve her conflict. Ignatia will not relinquish her ideals and no matter how disappointed she is, she will not compromise. She keeps attempting to picture the world as conforming to her idealistic image, and she can tear herself apart with this effort.
In these later stages, as they become irresolute and withdraw into themselves they may develop a fear of insanity. Ignatia may also have an anxiety about health. They fear that they may die from heart disease or cancer. Their anxiety tends to be worse at sunset. When in the midst of a disturbance characterized by such anxiety, they may stay in bed for days at a time because they fear that they