to go on again. I drag my left leg very slightly, and when I get tired, I really have to pull it forward when I walk. Sometimes both of my knees literally collapse out from underneath me. I’m a glazier by profession. I can still climb ladders and scaffolding and do the other things necessary in my line of work. I also have to work from heights; luckily I don’t suffer from vertigo. My main problem, where work is concerned, is that each time it takes me a long time to get to the top, and then I have to work in a funny position, which is hard for me.
(G.V.): How do you feel inside?
(M.P.): I feel a little bit of despair sometimes when I see people looking at me – at the way I move and walk -. I can tell what they are thinking, and that sort of bothers me.
(G.V.): Do you cry easily?
(M.P.): No.
(G.V.): You never cry at all?
(M.P.): Only on emotional occasions. For example, if I speak to a friend at Christmas and he says, “I hope you have a good time this Christmas,” or something like that, I become a little bit tearful. I’m much more quick-tempered than I used to be. I flare-up very quickly, but I usually simmer down just as fast. I’d say this has been the case only since I have had meningitis. In the past, I was very, very calm; it took a lot to upset me.
(G.V.): Are you very easily roused to anger now?
(M.P.): I’m not a constant complainer, but I get irritated rela-tively easily when my children do something silly or if something goes wrong at work. I just seem to get uptight faster that I did in the past.
(G.V.): What do you do when you get very irritated? Do you swear, throw things, or get physically violent?
(M.P.): Of course not.
(G.V.): You do not hit or swear?
(M.P.): No. Sometimes if the people in the workshop have broken or ruined something, or if the children have done something wrong, I might shout a little, but that’s all.