from the centre, went back the next day, stayed away another day, and then went on with my usual yoga teaching schedule: gave yoga demonstrations doing advanced postures, a lot of really intense, stupid things, and that I think is why…
Well, that’s only part of the picture, the full picture is the fact that I’m also going to graduate school. I stay up many times all-night long, and I drink a lot of Japanese green tea, which has caffeine in it. I had stopped drinking it and I had just started again to do so and I just completely debilitated my body. I know, I’m grateful, in a way, for this experience because I think it is so intense that it will have made a lasting impression on me that will make me change my habits, so that I won’t be just helping all my yoga students.
(G.V.): You’re not married, are you?
(F.P.): No. I did live with someone for eleven years and we had a very satisfying relationship, but my yoga practice has kind of led me into a place where I don’t really feel like I want to be married. And my frustration with the work is that I’m caring for so many other people that I haven’t done my own practice sufficiently. And the combination of postures and breathing techniques, would have kept me very strong and healthy. But my own practice is quite limited because I am so busy taking care of other people and sleeping three hours a night and going on year after year like this. Finally, it just gave up.
(G.V.): Do you feel very much for other people…
(F.P.): Yeah, to a point where it is self-destructive.
G.V.): Do you eat sweets?
(F.P.): I did for years and years, a horrible, violent craving for sweets, and it gave me a very bad case of diabetogenic hypo-glycemia, which I still have some of. I stopped eating sugar. But then in the last year, sometimes when I’ve been trying to stay up all-night, for two and three nights in a row, I’ve tried a combina-tion of eating chocolate and – this is incredible – Japanese tea to try and keep myself up all-night. It’s just incredible to even say that, but that’s what I’ve been doing. (Laughs)